work work work work for some kind of sanity

have you ever found yourself working yourself to death just to keep your mind off certain things? trying to occupy your mind with something as a momentary distraction to what feels like a splinter in your mind, constantly pestering you. using this sort of solution can in my opinion conclude to two results. a) after a long day's of work you find yourself satisfied. or b) after a long day's of work you find yourself from it all but not drained enough so the pestering thoughts come back.

i, myself have experienced both a and b. of course it's great when it's a. i feel accomplished and productive so even if the thought do come back it doesn't seem much of a bother. however when things aren't so sunny side up i get option b. i feel exhausted, cranky, and those damn thoughts creep up again out of nowhere. so what now? what do i do now? and the thing that makes this situation so much more frustrating is when i get these new negative thoughts that i wasn't even thinking about before i started working...




photo taken by yours truly, aly*

1 step foward, 2 steps back

when i said embrace the unknown and unexpected i guess it included learning how to deal with the past. who knew people can be just as addictive as any substance out there. preventing relapse becomes surprisingly harder than you could even imagine. when you think the past is finally the past it blind sights you.

on a brighter note my past and all its baggage is what brought me to this exact moment in time. satisfied and happy.

so far in nyc

hoping to keep my occupied this summer i've been interning and working two jobs. boy, did that all really catch up with me. again, my repetitive mistake of biting more than i can chew bit me in the ass. trying to juggle all three things simultaneously made me incapable to do even one of the three things to the fullest. lesson learned (as least for now)


up until recently these three things i used to keep me occupied left me no room for the unexpected.7 days all planned&scheduled.

no more ocd symptom-like planning. embracing the unknown

smile

so nostalgic

came across this picture while researching for my fairy tale pop up book project (3d final...) i thought it was such a wonderful picture, so young and innocent. i almost forgot what it was like to be a kid so i decided for old times sake to watch cinderella. amazing no matter how old i am this movie can still make me smile. still a kid at heart you know. an obvious fact so easily forgotten. we should try not to forget that, life's too short to be serious constantly. leave some room for play :D

its that time of the year.

major declaration//holy shit

it seemed like just a month when it was the first day of school but no there's only a month left in the semester. at the most crucial time in the year i feel my annual slump coming... this the time where i have step up my game finish the year off and show what i'm made of but all i want to do is stop and wrap myself up into a cocoon.

힘들다... 이런 마음 누구나 다 공감할수있겠지? 나만 이런 느낌있는건 아니겠지



do or die. sink or swim.

mary kate

i want to steal those shoes